You may deny it at will and seek refuge behind the pleasantries of today, but bear in mind that when going gets rough you don't have the chops for it and I'll be the one on the business end of a fucked up telephone conversation.
Get yours and get it good, but do it in time, otherwise you'll lose the momento and all you'll have left is a number to dial and a wound the just won't heal.
If honesty was your strong suit, you'd be spared a lot of grief, and believe you me when I say that you're the one with the most to loose. Me, I already lost what I had to loose and here on, it can only go sideways.